30 Days of Blogging Honesty (+1 Dare) – Day 27

“I have an inner voice, and if a friend spoke to me the way my inner voice does at times, I would…”

 I would probably tell them – and pardon my language – to fuck off.

My inner voice is not a very nice person.  And if someone were to come up to me on a daily basis and say the things that my inner voice says to me on a daily basis, this person would probably get told off, or possibly punched in the face.

I’m not going to repeat the things my inner voice says, and I’m not saying that the things I tell my self are true, or right.  I may have low-self esteem at times, but I have at least some pride in myself not to let someone else walk all over me.  What I say to myself is my own business thank-you-very-much, but that doesn’t mean I have to sit there and take that crap from someone else.  I can tell myself those things because sometimes I also say nice things our try to remind myself that those nasty things aren’t true.  And truthfully, I can say whatever I want to myself.  But someone else better watch what they say to me, especially if they talked to me like how I talk to myself sometimes – because even though I may believe it at times, I’m sure as hell not going to let someone else think they have any sort of power over me.

Thankfully, there isn’t anyone in my life that talks to me like my inner voice does – I don’t keep those kind of people in my life, so I never have to worry about it.  Once you cross me like that, they’re cut out.

I’m one stubborn bitch, yo.

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30 Days of Blogging Honesty (+1 Dare) – Day 26

“I would break the law to save a loved one if…”

It all depends on the situation with me.  I don’t like doing things that are against the law (with a very few minor indiscretions), so I think to save a loved one it’d have to be to save their life.  If they’re in a sticky situation and need some illegal help, they probably wouldn’t come to me because I probably wouldn’t do it.  But if their lives were being threatened, then I’d probably do whatever I could to save them.

Not sure what else to say about this question.

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30 Days of Blogging Honesty (+1 Dare) – Day 25

“My biggest pet peeve that has nothing to do with blogging, being online, computers, or anything else related to the Internet is…”

Honestly this post can go on for a while, I have quite a few.  It’s hard to narrow down what my “biggest” pet peeve is, but I’ll at least share my bigger ones with you guys.

My first one is people being inconsiderate on the bus.  I take public transit all the time, so it’s something I see a lot.  When I say being inconsiderate, there’s a big lump of things that go under that.  The first being is when people sit on the aisle seat and put a bag next to the window seat.  This doesn’t always bother me, but when the bus starts to get busy, and these people don’t allow for another person to sit down, it really gets under my skin.  I understand that sitting next to strangers can be a bother for people, but it’s really rude when people are standing on the bus and you are being a selfish jerk and won’t let someone sit down.  Another thing that bothers me is when someone sits at the courtesy seating up front and don’t move when either an elderly person, a mother with a carriage or a handicapped person come on the bus.  I mean, how oblivious do you have to be to realize these people need that space more than you?  Another thing that bothers me is when people leave their trash on the bus, pick up your damn garbage.

Actually, that goes for everything – if you’re out in public and you’re eating something or create a bit of garbage, pick it up.  Do you go to someone’s house and leave it a mess?  If so, you’re a pig – but I’m sure no one who comes here does that.  It just bothers me when I see like 16-year-old girls and boys and they’re eating at the mall, and they leave the table a disaster.  If I did that when I was 16 and my parents saw me, I’d get a slap upside the head for being a disgusting, inconsiderate, dick.  It’s not just teens I see doing it, but lots of people.  I mean, how lazy do you have to be to not walk two feet and throw out your coffee cup in the trash or to clear your tray at the mall?

My last one is people being on their phones all the time.  I’m not talking about people who are alone on their phone, but rather when you’re out with a group of people and someone won’t keep their hands away from their phone.  It doesn’t bother me if someone responds to a text or something, but more when someone’s playing a game while we have a conversation, or are constantly responding to text while trying to have a conversation.  This doesn’t really happen much with me, thankfully, cause my friends are awesome – but sometimes it happens at school.  And even with people I really know well, it doesn’t always bother me either, I guess it all depends on the person and the situation.  I guess it just bothers me more when people don’t read social cues to know when it’s appropriate to play on their phone and when not to.  Like I said, I see this more at school, like people playing on their phone in class or while we’re trying to do group work.  And I’m a culprit too – I’m trying to get out of my phone habits!

Yeah, I have a lot more pet peeves, but those are probably my biggest ones.

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30 Days of Blogging Honesty (+1 Dare) – Day 24

“Given the choice between having to live the rest of my life without my voice, or living the rest of my life without the ability to hear, I would choose…”

Having read a few answers already, I have to say both options provide pros and cons.  Not an easy choice!

However, I’d have to pick having to live the rest of my life without my voice.  I’m someone who gets my foot in my mouth a lot, so I think that would benefit me greatly.  Also, I really don’t think I could go the rest of my life not being able to watch my favourite movies or shows, listening to Josh Groban when I have a bath, hearing my boyfriend say “I love you”, or being able to hear my friends.  I mean, I’d still be able to communicate with people – I’d still have a blog, and I’ve always loved white boards, so I could make use of those.

If I couldn’t hear anything around me, I probably would feel really lonely.  Even if I couldn’t tell someone how I’m feeling verbally, at least I could still listen and hear how they’re feeling.  Sometimes I need to learn to shut up, so having no voice would probably make me more attune to the people around me.

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30 Days of Blogging Honesty (+1 Dare) – Day 23

“Allowing another person to fully love me means I must…”

This is a tough question.  Mostly because love can represent so many different relationships and to me each one works a little different.

I think one thing I have to do to fully love someone is to accept them for they are, including all of their good qualities and all of their faults.  No one is perfect, especially me; for me to fully love someone, I have to accept their not-so-great qualities and make peace with them.  I try to see them as idiosyncrasies instead of something negative.  Everyone does something that may be annoying to someone else, and if you can’t learn to live with those things that will never, ever change, then you’re not really leaving yourself up to be loved by this person.

Another thing I must do to allow someone to really love me fully, is I need to be vulnerable to this person.  Which may sound easy for some, but for me, it’s not that easy.  I have a wall up quite a bit of the time, mostly to save face.  To allow someone to love me, they need to have this wall come down.  And that’s not to say I don’t let my wall down from time to time with my friends, it’s just a lot of the time I don’t want them to be upset or even to see me as weak (which I know in my mind they never will because they’re awesome, but it’s that worry-wart inside me that thinks that).  For example – with my boyfriend, he wanted me to stop hiding my feelings because when I do that I bottle them up and then I end up exploding and in turn, what happens is a “dropped bagel incident”.  Once while we were at Tim Horton’s in the morning, this was right after my birthday and two weeks prior to that, we had a fight.  Well, we didn’t see each other until the night of my birthday.  So for two whole weeks, we rarely spoke, texted, or even saw each other.  I wanted to give him his space, while ignoring my own feelings of insecurities, so I held them in.  That morning, I dropped my bagel on the floor, and I started crying.  That poor boy had no idea what was going on.  So after that I promised to be open with how I’m feeling.  Which may have been bad for him because lately I’ve been crying a lot, but beggars can’t be choosers (and he’s not complaining, so I guess that’s a good thing).

I think one thing I also have to do to fully allow someone to love me is to know when to back down.  I can be a persistent, stubborn, asshole – and don’t object, it is true sometimes.  Sometimes I get in my moods and I’m snarky.  Sometimes I have every right to stand my ground or to wait for the other person to apologize – sometimes I don’t, sometimes I’m stupid and I do stupid things and people have a right to be mad.  However, what I’m getting at is that I know sometimes there isn’t a point fighting, especially over something like a misunderstanding, or something small.  I love the people in my life, I love my friends, my family, and my boyfriend.  I know that sometimes – well actually – a lot of the time, it’s better just to make up than to be right or to win a fight.  I try to not to fight with people but you know, life happens and sometimes people get in conflicts.  I said in my previous question post that someone has to be able to meet me halfway, to be able to compromise with me – when it comes to conflicts, I know that I need to do that too.  I can have really strong principles, and I can be stubborn, but when it comes to the really important stuff, that little thing called pride means dick if you have no one left in your life to love.  When it comes to disagreements, I will do anything to make sure I keep the people I love in my life, they’re the best part of me.

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