#26. If I could trade my weekly paycheck with a celebrity whose first name begins with the letter R, I would change with…
Either Ryan Reynolds or Renee Zellweger. I can’t really decide – I mean, they both make sooo much more than I do, and probably ever will, that it doesn’t really matter the difference.
Plus, if I traded with Renee Zellweger, I could pretend I was Bridget Jones, and that I got together with someone who looks like Colin Firth.
Wow, short answer today!
#25. To make my blog better I think I would like to start…
This is an easy one: actually making regular posts.
This has been the first time I’ve ever had a schedule and followed it. Usually I’ll say I’m too busy, or something else, and that I can’t do it. But evidently I can. I suppose when I set my mind to it, I can do just about anything, it all depends on my motivation.
If not that, I think I’d like to make more of an effort on the different posts that I have. I’m better now with Poetry Thursdays, but I really enjoy doing movie reviews, and my top 10, and plus I haven’t done a coffee wars since the holidays. I like doing different posts, and I think I’d like to start to make an effort with them more. Maybe one month I can do a movie review a week, or a month where I do a top 10 every week.
This is very feasible, I just need to put my mind to it!
This has nothing to do with my post, but I liked it.
#23. A movie I’m ashamed to say I admit I love is…
Ashamed to say I love? NEVER! If I love a movie, I love it, no one can tell me I’m wrong for liking it.
However, there are quite a few films that other people would think I’m weird for enjoying so much. Let me tell you this: I love bad movies. They’re hilarious, whether they are intentionally bad, or if they are unintentionally bad. There is nothing more entertaining than watching a crappy film. I’ve got my three favourite bad movies, and most people would be ashamed to say they love these films:
This movie is campy, it’s stupid, and it tries to be too much like the game without really being like the game at all. It tries to incorporate too many characters, too many stupid subplots, without really developing the main plot very well. It’s hilarious, and I absolutely love watching this film.
Yes, I actually enjoyed this film. And yes, I actually own it on DVD. This film did absolutely abysmally at the box office, and reviews were terrible. Fans of the show were mortified and ashamed. I can understand why, Dragon Ball and Dragon Ball Z would be impossible to translate into a live action film. The stories are too convoluted, too farfetched, and too silly to really be taken seriously in a live-action film. It works well for the anime, because I think when it comes to cartoons and animation, you can get away with a lot more. Why do I enjoy this film? Well, it’s got interesting action sequences, and the characters, though not necessarily 100% accurate to the show, are a good representation of what those characters stand for. It had some very laughable moments, but I guess I took it all with a laugh and just enjoyed it, without reading too much into. I’m not ashamed to say I enjoyed this film. It’s definitely not a masterpiece, and far from good, but it was entertaining.
Ah, the masterpiece of bad movies. If you haven’t heard of this film, I’m surprised. It is considered one of the worst, if not the worst, films of all time. It is just dreadful on every level. But with its combination of a stupid plot, flat characters, awful acting, awkward scenes, terrible dialogue, and shitty editing, there emerges a new kind of entertainment. This film will make you reach transcendence. And as you go through this unbelievable awful film, you will have a whole new outlook on life. It is so entertaining, it is so god-awfully bad, and the precious thing about this film is that it wasn’t intentional. This film takes itself seriously, and that is what makes it the worst film. I seriously recommend you watch it, you will be seriously entertained.
#23. Something I would change about myself right now is…
Ah, so many possible answers. On another day I may say something about my appearance, but to be honest, I’ve been feeling pretty good lately, so I think if I were to answer this honestly I’d have to say I’d change my job.
This isn’t to say I dislike my job in any way, it’s just that I went to school for a specific thing, and that’s what I want to do with my life. I feel like the longer I’m out of my field, the harder it will be for me to get in. I’ve been trying to get in, but have been having very little luck as of late, so it’s been a bit discouraging. So if I could change one thing about myself right now is that I’d make it so I was working my field, for a job that will give me experience and skills to further my career.
Oh, and another possible answer, is that I’d make it so I could have a boyfriend 
. But, I guess I already used my figurative wish, so darn!
#22. As to whether or not I have ever contemplated giving up on life, my answer is…
Yes. I think that thought of “would people really notice if I were gone” has crossed the thoughts of many people, whether it be for just a split second, or for a thought that lingers on longer than it should. Maybe a year ago I would never admit it, but now, I do, I admit that this thought has crossed my thoughts before.
There was a time in my life where I felt like I was very alone. I lived in a home of endless noise, cramped into a place to live with people who talked over one another, never to be heard. I had many friends, and at one point I trusted nearly none of them. The feelings I had continued over to my first year of college, which is when I ended contact with quite a few people, out of frustration, or out of apathy. Some people stopped talking to me, and I stopped talking to others. And though I did have friends, and had people around me that I cared about and loved, I felt very alone still.
Eventually I dug myself into a hole, and I came to a point where I felt like I could continue digging – and dig myself a grave, where I would truly be with my loneliness, my doubts, and my unhappiness. Or I could climb out of the hole, go through these struggles alone, and hopefully come back to sturdy ground ready to ask for help. I don’t want to go into details about what happened, but I feel that as I struggled to climb, I did see the “light” (so cliché I know). And things seem brighter now than they ever have.
Sure, I have those bad days, or weeks, or months, where it feels like it’d be easier to just start digging again, to shut down and give up. But ultimately, I don’t like quitting, I don’t like giving up. I’m one of those people who will sit there and untangled a bunch of wires or clothes hangers for hours on end, a task many may have given up on, just because I know that with patience I can do it. Sure, it’s a pain in the ass, and I’m doing it on my own, but when it’s done, I feel accomplished with it. I kind of approach my life that way. I don’t mind taking the time to work on my life, even if it feels like it’d be easier to give up sometimes, because I know there’s something better to work towards.
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